For our new apartment, which my mother may never see since slugging into that old person’s disease—I won’t bring myself to say it in writing—I bought a cactus and it’s beautiful, its soldier-green skin and feline-whiskered dress howls beneath the den light which encourages me to keep my big-boy jeans on. I know I look for answers everywhere. Everywhere there you are with your eyes a war-less country, a privilege we sometimes share. But tonight, there isn’t a country. Just a sky fussing. Anxious music. The classic duty of breath as we binge another episode of What Should I Do When You Want to Die. Sometimes, you fail to love me, I think I say, the math ain’t mathing—but what could you do? You’ve researched plants, I know, to find which could live without much gusto from its human. You pour yourself another glass of vodka, a shot of tequila for me. Who am I to think I’m too good for your anger—you were right… Come, let’s sour our swords together. Come, let morning waltz into our bedroom all cocky-like like it landlords the place. Come, let’s plunge forward, drunkenly in love, grab hold the darkness we become. |
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